I had a blog over at blogger.com discussing the strange relationships that I had in the past 20 years with two Turkish men. My blog was focused on the extreme arrogance, narcissism, extroversion and “game playing” of these 2 men.
I wrote from the “Turkish Culture” angle until I was recently struck in the face by “The Sociopathic Brick” in particular with Turk 2. Turk 1 now looks like a “Sociopathic Baby” (maybe he’s an extreme narcissist even, don’t know) in comparison.
My world just split wide open and I was thrown into the hell fires of the Creepy Sociopathic World. I have attached below my last writing from http://mysociopaths.blogspot.com/ (it used to be called “my life with turks,” I just changed the name yesterday) as sort of a transition over here to my new blog and to my life with the awareness that I slept with evil.
Stranger yet, everything that I was writing over at the other blog with the focus on the “Turkish Culture,” I was really writing about Sociopathy without even knowing it.
From Phase One and Two, to Turk One and Two, to damn…I was struck by Sociopaths! Trust me, I’m confused too!
People warned me with both Turk 1 and Turk 2 and I did a “hee-hee” and brushed it off as Psycho-babble weird talk. It took me almost 20-years to wake up from my Comatose Stupor and actually think past, “well, you know, all people are a little crazy” and “Turks are strangely egocentric and arrogant” to feel the metaphorical brick hitting me square in my blind and nearsighted eyes! I feel bruised and swollen. I let SOCIOPATHIC MEN take charge of me and run over me most of my life as I screamed and whaled out like a POW slowly losing their mind. It felt so good to be completely controlled by Creepy Men…I was special.
Another side of Creepy: I don’t have the sick self-confidence to say “go back and read all my past writings on this blog and you will see that I am writing about Sociopaths without using the word ‘Sociopath’ because I was still in OBLIVION” because frankly, I don’t have a sick ego that believes anyone will take the time to do that. But trust me, it is all there…in black/white, running off my brain, down my arm and out through my fingertips, and I didn’t F@#$en’ see it! Who should be shot and put out of their misery: Me or My SOCIOPATHS!?
Now on to my stupidity with this Blog…I continually forget how to access it and when I do get in, I cannot work most of the features. Once the Sociopath Ice-pick jammed up my nose, I went over to Freaky Facebook to start writing “My Sociopath.” Now I can’t get my Facebook “Page” to interact. I can’t even leave the page, I am stuck on it without even a “search box” to hook up with other “Sociopath” facebook pages. I then went to Twitter and started @mysociopath just out of desperation to get something to work as far as “connecting” and “interacting” is concerned. I have an 8-year old laptop that has never been upgraded so don’t know if it’s the old browsers (can’t be update either because of out-of-date system requirements) that I’m using or all “My Sociopaths” have wiped out all my cognitive abilities.
I will attempt to clear up my blog, facebook, and twitter mess (even have an animal rescue website that I wrote with a lot of mistakes that I will attempt to fix) by combining all together and perhaps the stars will align themselves and something will work! Life Rule: If NOTHING WORKS just connect everything together. Just like Life Rule #2: If Sociopath Turk #1 doesn’t work out and leaves you ruined, move onto Sociopath Turk #2.